Mulenga

Zambia

I had no idea what playing for the national team was. You hear about it; you read about it. Now you put yourself in a position where you are ready to be criticized. Everything you do - good or bad - is going to be criticized and you are going to have someone say something about it. "I used to ask God so many times, 'Why is this happening to me when I come to you, pray to you?' So why is all this happening to me and everyone else is OK? What did I do to deserve this? For me it is always why. Stop with the why." First of all I learned the biggest thing that you are not in control. No matter how much you try you are not in control of things that happen. If I did not have Jesus I would be lost. I would be completely lost.

I know my strength does not come from me. It comes from above. ... God won't take you to the next level if you don't know how to handle the pressure. The higher you go the worse it becomes. The higher you go every time you miss one ball, you have thousands of people calling you names or calling you stupid, and when you score you have millions saying you are the greatest. I am not going to sit here and lie and say, "I live a perfect, God-fearing life". I have problems sometimes. My faith is tested ... You have so many challenges. You have so many things that come to you. You want someone to talk to.